After Hanging 'Em Up

And I’d ply her with tears instead of pearls
And as time came around, she came my way
As time came around, she came
~~Peter Paul and Mary

Respect the worker when you're not one.
Creature comforts are easy compared to the
rigors of command. There's common ground
called style preferences which yield to the
artistic advisor exclusively. What a difference
there is between Ariel and Katrina as far as
property rights overrides go. The stuff that
you associate with longevity becomes "Next
!..." when the big one hits. Lesson here: avoid
getting anywhere near the big one if at all
possible. Where you want to be is near her
charging the us as one energy. All the
emotions are part of the seating arrangement
since exclusions have already been purged by
each of us. We don't spend time on the
exclusions since you gotta be fugly to make
that list. Pasta heads with angel hair like chia
pets only worse.

Dream Release

Nothing is more desirable than to be released
from an affliction, but nothing is more
frightening than to be divested of a crutch.
~~James A. Baldwin


The blend of hanging and moving > ON
really applies to family. I really get major mo jo
from being able to be familyguy with her
brood. That's a blend with my now distant
family who remains engaged virtually. We
find out early that knowing that everyone in
the brood is OK or being owned by sibs is a
strong need. Blending the families into one,
part here and part distant provides stability to
the zone. I know the purpose of wrinting is to
provide clarity to ideas but the notion of
writing something that's never been written
before prevails. The never before is personal,
it's the core of getting out what needs to be
released and capturing it for notes to further
the understanding in the years ahead.
Personal discovery of two, not a first-time plot
or collage of objects. As long as I know what I
mean, I savor the bonus time it gives us
to reinforce the zone. We are one as family
as we are one as lovers.

The Sanctity of Sequence

In the end, everything is a gag.
~~Charlie Chaplin

The levee where he drove his Chevy is rubbing
chests with Katrina and we're at a buck ten.
I'm beginning to concede that this may not
be getting the print job it deserves but maybe
it belongs just here. The dream sequence is
on a Colin Powell, brother in law, Kathy Burns
and mixed up flashbacks roll but pretty fine
sleep is continuing. Too much a/c time this
morning but reading under the umbrella has
that remedied (sympathy heavy-chest,
babe..). This 101st post is looking very 101A -
my life, blah-blah, but the early nite carry over
is just a repeat of yesterday's and we're
together for eternity. 'Nuff said, Ted.
((haven't heard that since '62 in Ray
Capman's Rambler)).

Under the Fit and Finish

Design is the fundamental soul of a
human-made creation that ends up
expressing itself in successive outer layers of
the product or service.
~~Steve Jobs

The love is made from scratch. Are scratch
golfers lovers? Are itches signs of love?
Around here, a Saturday night sundown can
transform further conversation in the candle
light with tunes from standards singers into a
soulful interlude. Just the two of us,
impervious to monotony, accepting the
serenity from the absence of clutter and loyal
to the feelings that surge without warning.
From inside the cocoon the explanations that
exasperate and confuse outside the gates get
simpler and better understood with every
realization of our brilliance. If it gets any
better, it'll be another day here.

Come Let Me Take You on a Desert Cruise

He looked as inconspicuous as a tarantula on
a slice of angel food.
~~Raymond Chandler

Eccentricities are just the pinstripes on the
mudflaps of life. Tasteful is as variable as the
size of the tank from which it's poured. Jungle
works here better than manicured. She's my
appearance advisor so there's never any
worry of embarrassment when entering the
public queue. I just can't get to SoCal casual as
my baseline (but no more cut-off jeans...).
Looking like you have it all isn't as grand as
actually having it. She's off the hook on finer,
and that's includes all from major to minor.
Can't wait to see the effect of the blue
painting which had to be made with angel
wings.

Face Cards Count More

Life, in my estimation, is a biological
misadventure that we terminate on the
shoulders of six strange men whose only
objective is to make a hole in one with you.
~~Fred Allen

The unique binding we have doesn't diminish
the distinction of those couples who
preceded us. If the only true measure was
enduring then we're so far past that part we
should go right to cavorting. Truth in just
wanting to be together with all the
personality melding that happens (I've ruined
her...but she's funny), that truth is so on the
point. Consecutive days of multi-dimensional
exchanges have a learning dynamic to them
in addition to the nurturing. She's so well
endowed with everything that adds to love
that I can't stop saying thanks.

Sublimate Your Transference

Nothing you write, if you hope to be good, will ever come out
as you first hoped.
~~Lillian Hellman

Using overkill depends on how desperate the receiver is for
getting the shock value to trigger the move towards the
desired results. Going to AA (overkill) after confessing that I
once pulled into the driveway, fell asleep and when the bride
asked what I was doing for the past hour, I said driving home.
The cool hood over the engine nailed me flat. What I
discovered at the two meetings I attended was I will make
sure I don't need hugs from strangers to induce the behavior
the hugs reinforce, hence the overstating lyrics found here
about keeping above the clouds and avoiding impairment like
it's worse than hotel bedspreads that smell like ass. I tasted
old satisfaction today peeling off filthy stained workclothes. I'll
spare the details on the why getting a good tree guy is on the
top of my must-dos. Used to do that as a negotiating ploy but
no need to negotiate now. The love is there for the taking and
giving and it layers the confines entirely. I kiss the ground.
She is my muse and my life.

Low Risk Limits Testing

All the art of living lies in a fine mingling of
letting go and holding on.
~~Henry Ellis

Walking a straight path across the dam wall
may have resembled sobriety testing but
actually was an exercise routine to calibrate
balance and mobility. Ample is plenty but
spirited a must. The current version is more a
blend of endurance maintenance at the gym
and actual results when dealing with public.
The Staying Real mandate insists that the
spiritual focus during part of the day be
overlayed with physical requirements on a
moments notice. Turns out that hasn't been
an impediment to getting that great return
on investment of capture time. That means
that regardless of profundity or lack of it in
what's captured, it paper trails part of
everyday. Happy trails to you. Let's go on a pony ride

It took me so long to find, I found out

Cherish your visions and your dreams as they
are the children of your soul, the blueprints of
your ultimate achievements.
~~Napoleon Hill

Short days and long nights sometimes means
a lighted life. When the long nights are
dream-filled, sleep is prevalent. Even when
the dreams aren't so much fun, the following
day still glows warmly. Could conclude that
pursuing your day like you're dipped in
dreamland makes for a well-rested
daydreamer. The impressions left here are
some facet of what my dreams mean, the day
ones and not the night ones. My fast forward
is fixed on dreaming about the Ponderosa
replete with actual family first and final
answer. Next would be to dream about loved
ones from former life, some who are still
living, or anyone from our reinvented
presence. When the recurring nagger
featuring return to work and becoming lost
stops for a few nights, I realize how soothing
the replacement dreams are even though I
don't remember the details.
Dream=sleep=well-rested.

When I Grow Up

The queer movement was anti institutional
with a critique to normalization: that you
don't have to get normal to become
legitimate.
~~Judith Butler

The game of ultimate peer review is at the
highest point on the 'why I write' chart. The
ability to maintain complete freedom to go
wherever the stream takes us and the
resulting capture worthy of random returns is
plenty for her exclusive eyes. Today's meal
was all her and perfect to keep the link from
the weekend through today. Not so
important is knowing even though Rusty
passes the smell test, it gets run over by the
big dogs if it were to be opened up to the
writers, researchers and image editors of the
planet. Not real important. The long term
benefits of doing this are edgeless in
possibilities.

Ringtones and the Frozen Eggs

That's the best thing about writing, when you're in that zone,
you're porous, ready to absorb the solution.
~~Michael Chabon

Oh media, source of foolish pandering, why do we listen to
your words about the Dow and today's price at the pump and
sleep through the mention of more dead soldiers? Industry
data says there are 1.3 trillion barrels of oil left in the planet or
42 more years of current consumption levels. Pray that we're not discarding lives just to fuel our hemis. So I recall the day in my first month with the company where I got caught short on the bus ride to the office. Miraculously, I held on through the commute and the elevator ride and the dash to the stall where I undid my belt and yanked my trousers down just in the nick o'tine. As I smiled with relef, I noticed that my zipper didn't open but rather tore itself from its stitches, leaving quite an opening in front that I had no way of closing. I stood by the door until the elevator dinged and my friend Kathy walked by as I pleaded for her to stop. She finally understood I wasn't trying to flash her and got me a stapler which secured my flies but pinstriped my package like a chrome hood ornament. Lesson learned: deliberate is better than frantic when it comes to pooping.

What is the difference between a joist and a girder? Joist
wrote "Ulysses" and girder wrote "Faust".

Saprophyte: A Good Night for Barren Cliques

All morality has been modelled on immorality and to this day has reinstated it at every level. The slave morality is indeed bad: it is still the master morality.
~~Theodor Adorno

The Bible's portrayal as a fact-checked biology book is like calling sperm unborn children. Too many missing events; like the realm of the unreal. My affectation to avoid the sententious and clog the lines with these words is probably thanks to Benny OneSix and the other Godmen who tout total acceptance or be labeled Godless. You can't be the ex-squeeze me man and be Godless. I just saw the light with my open eyes and it was not as bright as her gaze. I can taste the exact moment.

Lady Luck is a Fool's Mentor

Women's total instinct for gambling is
satisfied by marriage.
~~Gloria Steinem

Living among the masses, most of whom take
part in games of chance, tinkers with my
"don't leave the Big Needs to chance"
conviction, but not so much. One doesn't
always follow the other but it helps explain
why I still don't get trying to win big money.
Knowing that the best things in life aren't
things, winning big to be able to buy big
things sounds alot like a formula for
heartbreak. The ultimate jackpot has a pulse
and mine includes me in a role I wrote for
myself when I spent many hours awake in the
dark. She redefined her role to match the
barcode on our soul and my nocturnal hours are
enmeshed now with loving her. She's like a kid
with a puppy unable to keep from squishing
his face. Then it blooms into serenity
moments where the loving declares how it
really is the love-you-long-time version. Being
comfortable helps, being smitten is the center
piece.

Is That All There Is ?

If you are going to sin, sin against God, not
the bureaucracy. God will forgive you but the
bureaucracy won't.
~~Hyman Rickover


The labor of love works so much better than
the wages of sin. See, we've been doing
sound bites for over 4,000 years and the trap is
that we're still getting stuck on the processes instead of
moving on to the revelation. The scholars
who worked on the King James Version cared
not at all about the absence of acclaim for
their choice of words because their work was
a labor of love. The extreme differences in the
voices of the Gold Star Mothers means
nothing since they're mourning, something
unthinkable, coping with outliving any of
your children. It's not about acclaim or
applause or using tricks like pretending
you're the smartest person in the room.
Seeing how my love affects her makes me
love her effortlessly (no labor). Every attempt
to capture The Kiss (Debra Messing's version
in Wedding Date worked recently) brings the
feelings to the edge of my skin from the room
spinning at the Rio. Everyday still includes
some breath-taking spins.

After the Dance and the Union

Ring the bell that still can ring,
Forget your perfect offering.
There is a crack in everything.
That's how the light gets in
~~Leonard Cohen

A sustainability kinda world - maybe can do in
my lifetime. The enlightened on the planet
have come to understand what sustainable
means but not so much how to get it. DNA
tinkering is at all-time heights. Sustainable
love is nearly redundant - love is sustained by
love, so two lovers not only sustain but
intensify. How much sustenance there is in
the glorification in the home when she
arrives! How many galaxies can you count?
Where is there more beauty than the look on
her face when she see's you? When she see's
these words she'll feel further sustained but if
they're never read, they will have already
come alive just by me writing them. It's about
the writing is the living and living the words is
what really matters.

If I Didn't Care

A little nonsense now and then is relished by
the wisest men.
~~ Willy Wonka

Pass me the reason for caring about the
things people get paid for caring (or at least
broadcasting that you should care). The
cynicism is annoying but partly necessary. If
you don't pay attention to who's giving the
information as much AS the information, you
might be a redneck. Instead of delving into
the hinneyholes on the highway, I kept them
in the radar but thought instead about which
way to go to maybe pick-up lunch. I just like
to keep my care focus on us because the
results there count foreverything. We're both
about young, about reaching/keeping
acceptable levels of range of motion, lookin'
good, laughing as much as humanly possible
and so-o attracted to the 'ands' between the
beats. Thinking about nightmares from the
past helped in the understanding of today's el
crappo dreams but lacking in sufficient
holding power to think about any further.
Holding power is what occurs when we're
holding on (sometimes called HOE-DING) the
other voices are silenced and chants from our
soul take over.

Point Them at Her

Use your health, even to the point of wearing
it out. That is what it is for. Spend all you have
before you die; do not outlive yourself.
~~George Bernard Shaw

What's the point? And your point is? He's my
point man. Point and click. Point that out to
me. Good Lord, is that a pointing device?
Maybe Doug Adams never broke point into
two syllables P and oint, P-oint Pink Floyd -
the answer to the meaning of life?
The point in geometry has no dimension nor
properties except location. In life, point's
dimensions are like ants around the pool - too
many to count and always in motion. So
being a point guy is like a back-up, an
alternate, a stand-in for the lover who says
she's simple but is actually
mega-dimensional. Knowing when assistance
hurts or actually helps..ready 24-7....Rosario
with man marbles...insatiable thirst for
affection...freer than handouts on the strip.
Here I could reveal the magic of dishwasher
soap on shower floors but I refuse. The above
statement is......comfortably numb. Today's
version is accented by lucidity and results
unlike before when it meant dreamlike and
fantasizing. Natural nature. The reality is
better than the wish. She keeps leaping into
the zone with same zeal and vigah as her
lover. Both know it.

When You're On the Same Side

Common sense is instinct, and enough of it is
genius.
~~Josh Billings


Dealing with the focus makes for clarity. The
distractions are everywhere, too many to be
filtered, so the imperative is maximizing our
time in the zone. Filters adjusted accordingly;
signals inside us are one. Frank Rich's take on
the war is becoming the prevailing one on the
outside, but where the control counts, no end
in sight. Meanwhile, somewhere there's a
school mascot that's the pressing issue of the
time. I heard the argument being made that if
we evolved as science has revealed we'd have
no moral purpose. Part of my mind
understands first hand how God works and
with the same frequency my decisions
happen because they can. I don't get the either/
or ultimatums. Getting added strength after
acting on a decision reinforces both forces for
me. Angelic moments are constantly part of
the moments (with two angels mated, what
did you expect)? Two whom were rescued.
And who sang Rescue Me? - Fontana Bass!
((too bad it's actually Fontella Bass...heh-heh))

After Rapture: Making History in Your Spare Time

Love is made by two people, in different kinds
of solitude. It can be in a crowd, but in an
oblivious crowd.
~~Louis Aragon


A guy walks into a bar, sits down and hears a
small voice say, "You look nice today." A few
minutes later he again hears a small voice,
"That's a nice shirt." The guy asks the
bartender, "Who is that?" The bartender says,
"Those are the peanuts. They're
complimentary!" The new bar we tried
yesterday had $1.50 St. Pauli Girls but just
so-so grub. The thunder over head is a
reminder monsoon season is not over yet and
the week ahead may make this summer the
most delicious this century. The balance she
provides centers my thoughts and unleashes
the satisfiers into our soul. Forever hasn't
happened yet. Stay tuned for the good part.

I Like Happy Endings

When we remember we are all mad, the mysteries disappear
and life stands explained.
~~Mark Twain

Ample is the quantity desired by the enlightened even
though scorned by the greedy. Mae West had it all wrong
about too much of a good thing. Ample freezes the
proportion at the right level and eases the quest for proper
balance. Over the top works only when the essentials are in
synch and off the hook has a little room to wiggle. It's why
jumping off a bridge with elastic tied to your ankles is not
much different than a five hour jet ride - been done or why
bring it on? Answering questions has to be as effortless as
walking up the stairs, even though curiousity posing as
queries reeks of child-like "how come?"s. My quests for truth
are endless, much like love. Is truth love? Is love truth? Did I
forget to buzz in?

You Are My Ands Between the Beats


Don't follow any advice, no matter how good,
until you feel as deeply in your spirit as you
think in your mind that the counsel is wise.
~~Joan Rivers


After the dance has been a good time for a
long time. When you went to a dance, you
went home with a girl instead of with the
guys. But if I had the key to the chastity belt of
love (Disclosure: I have it) EVERY romantic
would get to the Big Dance and luxuriate in
the sweet sweat of finding her. Emptying the
soul a little everyday directs the best scenes
when she is in my arms. The fluid sax in the
background directs the feet to the south 35
and morning merriment. Never lost without
you because I'm never without you while
making it all ready for when you pull in.
That's when the REAL merriment starts.

Can't Get You Out of My Head

A man is not old until regrets take the place of
dreams.
~~John Barrymore

Using your mind to control your mind helps
you get what you really want. Things that we
want to do but we don't do sometimes
happens because we make these things "can't
do" when the better answer is "maybe we can
do". It goes back to not giving up on the
things you really want. If I really wanted to
play tennis and not have knees that hurt, I'd
find a way. Truth is I don't REALLY want that. I
want to be able to carry things and get into
tight spots right up 'til I'm way past the point
of average range of motion. I want to live in
this set where romance is the theme and
everything points to her, to love forever and
always be able to assemble, create and ride.
Getting there may take a large slice of lifetime
but even finding her and making her my life,
the magic in the touch multiplies, the
pleasure of her presence resonates and invariably, this way to
bring my pleasure to her sustains us.

I Only Have Eyes For You

The guns and bombs, the rockets and the
warships, all are symbols of human failure.
~~Lyndon B. Johnson

You get good at letting icons on your desktop help you when you're netting. Makes you think about the real life icons you use when going from life event to the next to the next. Did you really think that your flawed thinking by itself got you to this point in life? We've all been helped along the way by the references we chose with a little push from outside. You have to learn which paths are counter-productive diversions so that you can move effortlessly (Madison Ave.) elegantly (business consultant) and E N J O Y A B L Y (me) to the point where you are headed. Trying for cleaner extracts and life-like luminosities isn't so elegant but it is fun when unattached to outside validation. But the uncertain icons like tI-I iS are diversions that MAY be productive. It's getting on with it, back in the saddle, walk thru the beaded curtains as instantly as you can.

Home is Where the Heart IZ

The results of philanthropy are always beyond
calculation.
~~Miriam Beard

The view from outside always seems to direct
the attention away from differences that are
too small to have a big effect on the outcome.
Could be divine intervention, could be just
the openness of the outdoors, might even be
that's just because it's the way I want it to be.
It just seems that projecting outside of
yourself helps with proportioning
self-minutiae and the trick is to treat the
remainder with as much attention as needed.
The twins remind me of friendship served up
in earlier times and even though the
connection is broken, the residual remains.
By extracting truth from all choices and keeping the truth vs. everything else as
binary, makes sticking with the truth easier.
So be part of the truth.

I Want to Be Around for the Breakthroughs

The pleasure we derive from the
representation of the present is due, not only
to the beauty it can be clothed in, but also to
its essential quality of being the present.
~~Charles Baudelaire

Pacificism has been so successfully cliched that it
invariably elicits "Of course war is bad, but what about
being taking over by worse (or even worser)"?
The disconnect comes when accepting that
you need tough guys to fight for you but you
are too prone to MAKE them die for you.
Overcoming bumps along the way on the
homefront would be the best best way to
maintain "let's get along" once it's achieved
around the planet. When you keep talking
about how you feel and both are listening
what the other one is saying and really caring
about what you hear, boingo. It doesn't
always happen in the first sentence or two,
but the conversation will take you there.
Getting back up into the love zone is all that
counts.

The Fix Comes From Within

A liberal is a man too broadminded to take his own side in a quarrel.
~~Robert Frost

Aftermath (comes phys. ed.) of dealing with the crises in education is the inevitable conclusion that primary (1-7) needs to emphasize fundamentals and secondary needs to take into account the hormonal factor and make classrooms focus on real life applications and be the equivalent of today's college. I got locked on liberal arts as a package and wondered why there never was a conservative arts - probably because conservative means inward and learning requires the boundless perimeters of freedom of thought. The environment where all this took place was the impression of the Great Barrier Reef minus the coral and wildlife , A.K.A the tiled pool out back. Some of the most pressing world problems get fixed there. Semper Fi.